don’t bother bothering the bother.. August 1, 2008

this is an excerpt from my friendster, well, found it kinda cute hehe, so i wanna share it with everyone:

• s e x y
• Posted 08/1/2008 8:11 am
• one two three.. tooooooot! ampf!!!

MaRVie

• Posted 08/1/2008 11:26 am
• Ey! are you ready one two three tooooooot!!! hehe

  Grabe ah,haba ng hair mo gang cubao na nga talaga… pero gupitin mo na ung nde dapat! dahil walang kwenta at wala talagang kakwenta kwenta un kung hahayaan mo pa magstay sa ulo mo. Ang panget kaya!!! Yikess!!! Alagaan mo nalang siguro ung bagong tutubo pero ingat ka lang. hehehe

s e x y

Posted 08/1/2008 12:21 pm

matalinhaga masyado ang iyong isunulat kapatid.. malamang sa malamang mabasa ito ng taong iyong tinutukoy.. pero huwag kang magalala dahil ako ay mas matapang na at napatunayan ko na kahit anong dagok dumating sa buhay ko ay nalalagpasan ko.. maraming salamat sa lahat lahat pati na rin sa walang sawang pakikinig at pakikiiyak at sa panood sakin na umiyak.. makakaasa ikaw na hindi na ako padadala sa aking naramdaman, pansinin, naramdaman ibig sabihin tapos na..

wow, ur comment was sensational sis.. am absolutely sure he’s gonna read this.. but don’t ya ever worry coz am much better and i can survive any empediment .. thanks heaps, for listening to, crying with and silently caring.. i assure you that i know how to play with my emotions, note it, i know now..

• i am sexy, marvie is a dear friend whom I can trust almost everything..

cheers for the guys.. July 31, 2008

the temporary absence from my immediate vicinity seems to effect a slight depression of sorts within this realm’s day to day existence.. in short, i miss you, the nosebleed edition..

that quote was forwarded by a dear friend, we’ve known each other for almost 10 years.. he is a very dear friend, rescued me at my lowest, comforted me when no one cared.. we’ve lost contact for almost a month but yesterday, i’ve decided to let him know that am ok.. though things are now way different from before, still i treated him my friend.. after all, he’s nearly a godfather to my baby..

to my doctor friend, australia? you’ll keave me too? hahaha.. but as promised, i’ll ring you once you’re there.. the kangaroo and outback? so nice knowing you’ve always treated me kindly.. and yes, i’ll be seeing you soon..

then as i was about the leave, i received a text message.. uhmm.. familiar number? after some thoughts and what-if’s i’ve decided to send my reply.. and lo, indeed, it was him.. things rushed, as if i wanted to scream, in anger? perhaps? or maybe, i just missed him.. after all, he was good to me then.. but heck, there’s nothing wrong with that.. mate, cheers to the old times..

now that am better, and i’ve been always good.. am reaping  my reward.. just in time.. missing a person is just like saying you care.. now, care may mean diffently to others as we have different perspective.. knowing that someone is there.. it feels elating.. that feeling lingers.. so good that i don’t want it to end.. i told you yesterday that i miss you, yeah, i really do.. thank you dearrie for making me believe that life is good.. as i’ve texted you.. you make me happy and you make me feel good about myself.. you told me, you were touched by that gesture, i smile and send you double wink.. for the meantime, i’ll just hang in here, see where this will lead us..

Moving On.. July 17, 2008

things happen for a reason, though we may not understand it at the moment, but as days pass by, we’d learn to figure out why certain things happened.. i am writing this blog not just for myself but for all those who went through the darkest hours..

we may think that there is no tomorrow, no sun to shine and no smile to cheer us up.. the first few days after realization things are over, are hell, believe me.. it is as if people around us seems to be taking advantage of our misery.. well, others do, i know one.. hmmm.. but only then you will know whom to cling on..

we curse, we curse and we curse.. after all, most people feel good after the cursing.. i admit, i tried it.. hell, it’s kinda good, at first, but then i realized, it’s gonna do me no good..

trusting again.. because of individual differences, people tackle sort of same problems with different solutions that one may know at that time, is right.. when you look at the mirror, you gaze upon someone whom you might knew before.. thinking again, and again.. gaining composure then admitting, it was you, after all.. intuitions.. good intentions and suffering ending..

now, we are ready to face our fear.. move away from hybernation.. smile at people.. laugh hard.. catch up on things and learn to accept thing as they are.. it may be hard at first but after you’ve gone through that, you will know that life is best enjoyed, alone, until..