cheers for the guys.. July 31, 2008

the temporary absence from my immediate vicinity seems to effect a slight depression of sorts within this realm’s day to day existence.. in short, i miss you, the nosebleed edition..

that quote was forwarded by a dear friend, we’ve known each other for almost 10 years.. he is a very dear friend, rescued me at my lowest, comforted me when no one cared.. we’ve lost contact for almost a month but yesterday, i’ve decided to let him know that am ok.. though things are now way different from before, still i treated him my friend.. after all, he’s nearly a godfather to my baby..

to my doctor friend, australia? you’ll keave me too? hahaha.. but as promised, i’ll ring you once you’re there.. the kangaroo and outback? so nice knowing you’ve always treated me kindly.. and yes, i’ll be seeing you soon..

then as i was about the leave, i received a text message.. uhmm.. familiar number? after some thoughts and what-if’s i’ve decided to send my reply.. and lo, indeed, it was him.. things rushed, as if i wanted to scream, in anger? perhaps? or maybe, i just missed him.. after all, he was good to me then.. but heck, there’s nothing wrong with that.. mate, cheers to the old times..

now that am better, and i’ve been always good.. am reaping  my reward.. just in time.. missing a person is just like saying you care.. now, care may mean diffently to others as we have different perspective.. knowing that someone is there.. it feels elating.. that feeling lingers.. so good that i don’t want it to end.. i told you yesterday that i miss you, yeah, i really do.. thank you dearrie for making me believe that life is good.. as i’ve texted you.. you make me happy and you make me feel good about myself.. you told me, you were touched by that gesture, i smile and send you double wink.. for the meantime, i’ll just hang in here, see where this will lead us..

Moving On.. July 17, 2008

things happen for a reason, though we may not understand it at the moment, but as days pass by, we’d learn to figure out why certain things happened.. i am writing this blog not just for myself but for all those who went through the darkest hours..

we may think that there is no tomorrow, no sun to shine and no smile to cheer us up.. the first few days after realization things are over, are hell, believe me.. it is as if people around us seems to be taking advantage of our misery.. well, others do, i know one.. hmmm.. but only then you will know whom to cling on..

we curse, we curse and we curse.. after all, most people feel good after the cursing.. i admit, i tried it.. hell, it’s kinda good, at first, but then i realized, it’s gonna do me no good..

trusting again.. because of individual differences, people tackle sort of same problems with different solutions that one may know at that time, is right.. when you look at the mirror, you gaze upon someone whom you might knew before.. thinking again, and again.. gaining composure then admitting, it was you, after all.. intuitions.. good intentions and suffering ending..

now, we are ready to face our fear.. move away from hybernation.. smile at people.. laugh hard.. catch up on things and learn to accept thing as they are.. it may be hard at first but after you’ve gone through that, you will know that life is best enjoyed, alone, until..